tribute to Khim

the news came...
my ex-boss, Khim, who was lost during the fatal Tsunami in Phuket last Boxing day, was confirmed a victim as they managed to match her DNA using dental records recently.

Piece of sad news indeed, but in a way, I felt it probably brought a closure to the sadness and void in her family's and loved ones' hearts.
Attending the memorial service yesterday was also a spritual and mental awakening.
Many came, ... having carved a rather successful career, no doubt, many were business friends.

For me, the truth is, we never had a very friendly, nor close, nor desirable working relationship.
She was to me very "up there", and we hardly spoke, except for work matters.
Apart from a few episodes of unpleasant exhanges, I didn't have a good impression when I left
And only much bad talk even at that with common collegues, who have also left.

Probably God's call, we met and spoke as I was looking for good shop spaces for the company.
Just about few weeks before the untimely day, we met on site at a shopping centre
And somehow, impression and relationship just became better in that mere hour
Not that it blossomed, but somehow, there was a warm feeling

Just 5 days before that day, we exchanged a series of emails
Not just talking about the shop space for work, but also my son, hubby etc.
We wished each other happy christmas, ironically it may be on hindsight, but anyhow, it felt good
that I managed to catch up with her even after leaving the company for a good 4 years

I am thankful for being given that chance to goback and store all those bad feelings, in exchange for beautiful and warm ones

I am thankful, for it taught me a silent but important life lesson, that its really no use talking, gossiping, and assuming about people that we don't feel good about.

Probably a moment of feeling good that could bring, but imagine not having able the chance to find out if all those were real, and the person goes.....

Khim, I sincerely am sorry for all the awful and untruthful things I may have said or thought about you. But I know all that changed for the better, just that I did not have the chance to tell you nor show you in action. We may not be close but just acquaintances, but I will never forget the invaluable things this episode has taught me.

I am glad you are in the company of God. Peace! God Bless!

mini man

I chanced upon the bag with my son's baby photos all over it, a proud exhibit by his daddy then.
He seems so different now yet so close still
Has it been so long already?
wow... little wondering ... only managing to see that in a little mini man.

But for an adult, the time doesnt seem to pass that fast
just looking at faces, it doesnt seem to tell all those paces
yet all that shows perhaps in the mind, in maturity, in handling situations.
Hmmmm.... I hope so.